Fractured Mind and Tattered Thoughts

[Rune174]

Hey everyone,

For a long time, since the moment I came here, I thank you everyone for everything up until now. I'm glad to know alot of you and I consider you all as my friends, but there has been something I have been keeping a secret that I feel now to be the best time to get off my chest.

As far as I can remember, my mind has always been torn between many thoughts on a conistant basis without end. It causes me alot of pain, and headaches happen very frequently. I have had cat-scans, and many kinds of tests that I can't even call by name, and all came to the conclusion that I have an unusually sensitive network of neurons patterned around my brain. While the rest of my body is unaffected, my mind is often going past thought after thought without end, making it very difficult to focus on each of them individually.

This is one of the main reasons why I love to read, whenever I do, it helps me focus on words and ideas without the banter of voices crowding my head. Dreaming, on the other hand, is not my favorite kind of thing to have. For example, I could one moment be dreaming about something pleasant, but it would always switch to a nightmare just as fast before turning back into the dream. Its like having a sticky button on a remote to a television set that is set to channel+.

I have only recently found that because of years of continued lapses of unchanged patterns, I was recently diagnosed by a psychiatrist with MPD, multiple personality disorder. I know it sounds strange, even to me, but they told me, especially my family that there have been times when I sounded or acted like a completely different person. They described me at times to be a single person who loved to be around the family, while other times I am an antisocial person who becomes quick to anger over the simplest things.

Right now I feel a bit scared, and I just got put on some medicine that could help quell some of the neuronic sensitivity which would cause my thoughts to 'cooldown'.

I feel a bit less strained, so I felt I could let you guys know my situation.
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[Silvador]

Well, I can't speak for everyone, but rest assured, I won't think any different of you.
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[Wolf Stride]

Same here, mate.
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[Drofgod969]

So far you are Silv.
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[Foxonian]

I have known people with your condition and have gotten along quite well with them(or all of them,in a few cases).But,as far as I know,you have nothing to fear from me.Just don't fear yourself.You seem like a good fellow and I would miss you if you left.

[Rune174]

Oh believe me Foxonian, I don't ever want to think of leaving this place. I just wanted to let you guys know of my condition, as opposed to leaving it a siecret when I could easily say something out of the norm and hurt others unintentionally. Its not like I completely turn into somebody else like a Dr. Jekell and Mr Hyde, lol, though it would be funny.
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[Wolf Stride]

Wait...Rune can become Mr. Hyde!?

Hide!
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[Silvador]

-jeckell's under a rock-
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