Bah. Apologies, Rough time.

[LunaIsAce]

I've had a really tough time recently, and I've had no one to vent too, so I wanted to post here.

I've stopped replying to some really good RPs, because I've been having such a hard time that I haven't had the inspiration to respond. So, for that, I am truly sorry, and when I am in a better state of mind, I will start replying again.

For the issues at the minute. I am sick. Very sick, so much so that when i went out for my friend's 20th the other night after one drink i collapsed in the middle of the road, in agony, fortunately I was lucky enough not to be hit by any ongoing vehicles. I don't know what's wrong with me but I do not have the patience or the strength to stand up, face my fears and get to a doctor. I've just never been fond of doctors, needles freak me out enough as it is.

Second, a while ago, my nan died, back in December, and my mum dealt with it badly and I never got a chance to move on. Now, every waking second, mum is bringing home something new of hers, and I just want it to stop. I don't want to see everything. I don't want to be remembering that my nan's dead every second of the day; it's tearing me apart.

Last week, I have a nice sleepover with a guy, I have a nice time at his, I go out another day, and I am actually in a much better mood. I spent time with him on Valentines day, watched a movie, and saw him last Thursday too. That really lightened up my week. It did.

But then, my brother comes home for half term, as he lives in Wales with his fiancée, and starts ordering me around, expecting me to help move my Nan's stuff. I'm sorry, I just don't want to. I don't want to know about it. So, he gets very angry, and takes everything from my room, shoves it in two bin liners, and is giving it too a local charity shop tomorrow morning. It's like, my toothbrush is there, my headset, any games, clothes, everything. It's all there, and he's just giving it away. He doesn't even live here. And the moment i consider standing up to him, he'll lash out and hit me. He said. ''Luckily, I'm letting you keep your covers and bed''. This is unfair.

It's just one lot of stress upon another.
I can't even tell my family I'm sick because they don't care. I'm eighteen, I shouldn't be treated like this..

So there it is, a summary of a few things that are going on in my life. I'm sorry I haven't responded, but I'll try to get back to you all as soon as possible..

Luna.
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[Rune174]

That is pretty rough, and things like that can only make you stronger when the whole issue is resolved. At least hopefully anyways. I hope you don't feel as ill in the near future so that you can handle the emotional issues separately. I used to get freaked out by needles too, but after getting multiple shots before and after being in the military, I kinda got desensitized and grew out of that fear.

As for your grandmother's death, its expected that the death of one's parent is very upsetting. When my grandmother died, my dad was saddened and made decisions he now regrets to his day (Married a woman whom he is recently divorced). It took awhile, and I'm glad that my uncles got most of her stuff except what was important to my father.

For your brother, I could say he could go to hell. As an older brother myself, there is no reason to ever go as far as to take anger out on my sister at such an age where I should be a man and take care of his family. Yeah I have my differences with her that we often argue about, and we have differences in opinion. Your brother should'nt even be able to touch your possessions, since he does'nt even live in your house, let alone give it to charity.

I'm glad that you are still able to enjoy the moments you have with your friend. He sounds like a likable person.
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[LunaIsAce]

He has been really good to me recently, and as much as I appreciate that, almost all my personal possessions are gone. I'll have to buy them back unless I'm lucky enough that the people at the charity shop will take pity on me.

It's just hard. I didn't even get a chance to get over my Nan's death. Why should everyone lash out at me? It's making college and home life both very difficult.
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[Aaron_Thom]

I'm sorry to hear this. I wish there was something I could do. The loss of a loved one is never easy and I wish you the best and hope you you get better soon. On a Personal note, I think your brother is an a_hole and needs to get a life. As for him taking your things and giving it to charity... sorry in my book thats stealing.
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[Rune174]

What a bastard!! How can your mother even allow such a thing. I know she is having a hard time, but that does'nt mean she should allow your brother free reign.
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[LunaIsAce]

He's 20. We don't have a dad, or at least not in his eyes, so he thinks he's in charge.

It's like. I had to beg my mum, to go get me a bra. Because he put EVERYTHING in there.

I know other families have it worse than me, but I don't understand why it has to be so difficult here, he's making things hard.

It's like. My Jazz shoes, Tap shoes, Straighteners, Headset, all my performance gear, he's throwing it all out. I will now have to spend about £400 to replace all that unless the charity shop owners take pity on me.
And i know, to some people, that's not a big deal, but it is for me. I want to continue in performing arts, I can't keep replacing equipment because my brother is acting half his age.

And then there's all the personal stuff, my monologues I was learning, things that have sentimental value to me, all my Uni application forms. They're all in those bin liners. And my mum doesn't care, and my younger brother just laughs..
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[LunaIsAce]

But thank you, sincerely. You are all very supportive. I appreciate that.
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[Rune174]

Well, most of us here try to be supportive to those who are facing plights that are often hurtful in their case. For instance, Henk had to move out of his old home and was gone for awhile for one example.
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[LunaIsAce]

well thankyou. i still wanted to apologize for not being on though.
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[Rune174]

We always encourage others that life comes first, so nobody will hold a pointless grudge for that fact. So you are alright.
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[LunaIsAce]

Well thankyou ^^
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[Rune174]

You are quite welcome. Glad to have been able to help.
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[Hoshiginiro]

wait a minute he HIT you!!!!? isn't there domestic violence laws in your part of the world?! CALL the fucking law on his ass
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[Rune174]

I wish she would so he could see what it feels like to get hit by inmates over at the local prison. I could care less if he is getting married. He should learn that you never hit a lady, at least that is how I was taught.
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[Hoshiginiro]

welll if hes willing to hit his little sister... how does he treat his fiancee?
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[LunaIsAce]

Actually. He's never hit her. He loves her to pieces, but she always pushes him away. It's me he has a problem with not her.
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[LunaIsAce]

And, he hasn't hit me in a while. Then again, he hasn't been here for a while. He thinks violence is the answer to everything. And apparently, our dad did too, but my dad never hit me, so, apparently my brother does instead.
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[Hoshiginiro]

has your stuff made it to the charity place already? you can call the law on the fact that hes throwing your stuff out ....i think ....i know you could in America no one but you can legally remove your things from your home
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[Hoshiginiro]

god im so pissed off i wish i had the ability to go over there and help you .....i know call his fiancee and ask her for help ask her to make him give it back
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[Rune174]

Even so, he should be the man of the house, and that comes with certain responsibilities. Never hit a woman, always be fair to those around you, and be willing to work hard for the things you have.
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[LunaIsAce]

He doesn't live here. I managed to get two of my bags back of my mum, and will apparently get the other two bags later. So, that's good. Either way, he leaves at the end of the week.
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[Rune174]

Thank goodness for that. I'm happy that your things are not lost.
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[Drofgod969]

Glad that it ends well... but i think he needs one heck of a talking to.
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[Rune174]

More like an ass kicking session.
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[Drofgod969]

that too >.>
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[LunaIsAce]

I still don't have all my stuff back. It's frustrating. But at least I have SOME clothes..

and Yeah. my brother thinks he's all high and mighty and doesn't listen to anyone ever to be honest.
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[Dorian Longstreet]

Hey

I am terribly sorry for all that's been happening to you, and I wish I could come over there and help. Though know that all my sympathy goes out to you, and I will try to provide as much emotional support as I can ok.

Also, I find it absolutely horrible that he hits you, no man should ever lay a finger on a woman unless it is in a act of kindness and love. and I know that someone such as you does not desrve to be treated in such a despicable manner.
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[LunaIsAce]

I really appreciate the support, people.
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[Rune174]

No problem. I'm sure you would do the same for us if we were in your position.
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